I used to think I handled stress well.
I guess I’ve lost that talent. Or this kind of stress is just a whole new variety that I am ill-prepared to deal with.
Yes, I am talking about decisions regarding my trajectory through grad school & research.
Including: will my current lab remain my thesis lab, as it typically should?
Let’s make a pro/con list for “yes”:
Pros:
- I already know my way around this lab/how it works.
- I like the people.
- I get along with my PI.
Cons:
- I hate the research; it bores me.
- For this reason, I am super unproductive.
Now let’s make a pro/con list for “no”:
Pros:
- If I ditched this lab I could potentially get involved in a lab that matches my interests.
- I might get a lot more out of my Ph.D. by researching something I enjoy.
Cons:
- I would feel guilty leaving these awesome people.
- I would need to “start over” and learn my way around a new lab.
- My graduation could potentially be set back by more than a year.
Happy medium answer(?): Start a project in my current lab that employs skills I prefer to use. At least I’ll half want to come into lab? Maybe?